The Sea of Self Pity

Before I dive into my entrancing tale, if you haven’t noticed, I have been gone for a while. The reason, a combination of laziness and inspirational challenges. Truthfully, nothing really motivated me and I don’t intend to put meaningless dribble on here so you should be thankful. Anyway, in spite of sounding too PBS-kids-like, back to the story.
Up until late April, I thought I had a pretty good life. Sure, I had problems with my parents and I didn’t have boyfriend, but I liked my life. Then, I started to notice Kristen was becoming very close with a new group of guys. Stacy and her always would talk about people I didn’t know. Suddenly, I realized my life was not as great as I thought it was, compared to them at least. Guys swarmed over Kristen. Stacy knew everyone and I was left in the shadow.
Feeling unable to measure up to them, self pity was a daily challenge and I became addicted to it. Crying over my imperfections, wishing for change, wanting more excitement; it consumed my every thought. When I had suspicions Kristen and Stacy were leaving me out, I would immediately get on facebook and check their statuses much like a crazy stalker. Once I confirmed they were “at the mall”, the self pity process would begin again.
After some careful thinking and time away from facebook, I realized how retarded I was acting. I was looking so hard for evidence my friends’ lives were better than mine, that I wasn’t even seeing what was right in front of me. I always was jealous of Kristen’s constant drama report that I didn’t even hear what she was actually saying. Her life was complicated, filled with lies and deceit. Stacy’s was just as troublesome. She delt with the most powerful emotion of all, love. Once I stopped pitying myself, I actually heard what my best friends were saying. The message was clear: everyone has their equal share of problems.
Be happy with what you have. Think of yourself as lucky not to have so much drama, fortunate enough to have loved, blessed to have great friends. And remember if you want get anywhere in life, stop lying in the sea of pity. Do yourself a favor and stop crying, wishing, wanting for something and more listening, helping, trying.